One of the few appearances I usually make every year or two or so

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 Hi, again.

This is still Charlotte.

I am 25 years old now and this is the post containing my most mature thoughts.

I am currently watching Me Before You which I just finished reading last night. I started it over the holidays in December and it's already February today, which is such a BIG shame!

I normally finish a book within 2 days or less. And nowadays, my attention span is so fried like the burnt chicken I cooked yesterday. Although, it's not all my attention span. Life got too hectic, too.

As you may know, based on my recent blog posts, I'm employed now. I actually do real life work for real life companies, and not anymore merely solving word problems for fictional ones.

Life is currently a ride. I'm scared where I'm going to next. 

I have plans cooked in my mind and heart. It's the execution I'm scared of. Because that's where we're about to know if the plans will be fulfilled or not. That's the part I am really scared of. The big picture is so freaking scary.

Anyway, those are just a blip of my thoughts. I'm just procrastinating here to avoid working on a AITR prep whose working file I have to overhaul for the 2024 filing.

Uhhh.. what else.

I have grown SO conscious about my weight. I know I should tell myself that it's just a number but I would like to support my past and future self when she's getting depressed over her weight again.

ATM:
You weigh 57.7 kg. (Not that it matters. But, I just want my future self reading this to have a reference.)
Your hair is black. You haven't gotten it rebonded for 1 year and 7 months and it's the prettiest it has ever been. Your hair has volume and life, unlike the twigs you had when you were obsessed with rebonding it.
You curl your hair whenever you go out or go to the office.
You do makeup now and you're pretty good at it. 

You're gonna do great. I promise.

To my future self reading this, I hope I made you proud.


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